Day 61...

I can't believe I have been running now for 2 months. I feel some progression but not enough to satisfy so I did some speed workouts on Thursday. I began the day with the baby crying incessantly and the boy teasing the girls to the point where even I felt picked on. So the only thing I desired after I dropped them all off at their schools was to let out all my frustration on the treadmill. Which I despise. So I did some speed work. I felt so good afterwards. I wasn't able to achieve much as far as speed goes, but I felt better than I have in a long time. I have started eating more healthy and can feel a huge difference in the way that my body feels. I have more energy and more strength. Still no weight loss. I don't know why my body is hanging onto this weight. It can be quite devastating. So I try not to weigh myself very often and focus on the way I feel. Today is a saturday and I am supposed to run 5 miles. It will be the furthest I have gone since having the baby. I am not sure if I will manage to fit it in on a very busy day but we'll see!

Day 52...

The run today was liberating. I couldn't wait to get out and see just how well I could do. I have been running with a woman that is far superior. Although it may be boring for her it is great for me. She pushes me further and further, faster and faster. I have yet to get where I was before I got pregnant but I am closer to that goal than I have ever been and it is exciting. With 15 extra pounds I can feel the added weight holding me back. I get giddy to think when I finally shed this weight how much my time will improve. I ran 3 miles today in 27 minutes. Although 4 minutes slower than my PR I am still thrilled with seeing that 10:00 minute pace disappear. My sweet baby turns 4 months old on Sunday and Saturday I will celebrate with a 5 mile run. It will be farther than I have gone since having that sweet thing. I still can't believe she is growing so old so fast. So much faster than my other children. I feel grateful to be a mother of incredible children and I am grateful I have the ability to run. It is awful how much time I have spent being mournful over the loss of my much trimmer figure when instead I should be grateful for the opportunity to run. I have legs that move and a heart that beats strong. I am healthy and I should be happy about that!

Day 49...

I can't believe that I have been back running for nearly 50 days. I feel I should be further along than I am now. The baby is almost 4 months old and I am running out of the excuse of "I just had a baby." I have really enjoyed having that crutch! I am ready to get to work.